So a lot of our way towards our desire is also a way towards self-knowledge on both a psychological level and an anatomical level.
We learn on the fly, which is not always going to be successful on the first try. We often mourn the loss of innocence and shame the failure but for queer folks, failure becomes a necessary practice towards success, so we fail forward.
だから、私たちが欲望に向かう道の多くは、心理学的なレベルでも解剖学的なレベルでも、自己認識に向かう道でもあります。
私たちはその場で学ぶが、それは必ずしも最初の挑戦で成功するとは限らない、私たちはしばしば無邪気さの喪失を嘆き、失敗を恥じるが、クィアな人々にとって失敗は成功に向けた必要な練習となります。
Since I was a kid, I knew I was a little different from the other boys.
I thought the flowers were a little bit weird
and I prefer sitting alone playing with my toys.
I once tried to search for the answers of the birds and the bees
through the clouds in the sky,
yet little did I know this would make me the perfect prey
while I didn’t even know how to fly.
I blamed my friends, my parents and the system for allowing this to happen,
but mostly, I blamed myself.
Not until years later, I’ve finally learned that
the first step to become an adult,
it’s to stop punishing yourself for things you did when you were a child.