My Devotion to Loneliness // さびしがりやのわたし embroidery on drapery
My Devotion to Loneliness // さびしがりやのわたし 2022. 11 170 × 130 cm embroidery on drapery
Throughout the history, especially during the Medieval Period, women were expected to embroider patterns like flowers and instruments to the mantel drapery while men were fighting in wars. These embroidery patterns emphasised the taste and elegance of the holder and were believed that embroidery enhanced domestic happiness, providing the comfort that would win a husband’s love and prove a wife’s devotion.
There were times that I’d change my appearance or personality in the hopes of getting my crush to like me or I’d often blame myself and shoulder the entire responsibility for the failure of my relationships, not until later I realised how shallow the intention was. Therefore, I decided to embroider flower patterns representing my desire for companionship, love and closeness on drapery while using it as a metaphor to show my devotion to solitary.